Dear One,
My intention is to be of service to you in traversing challenges and discovering what’s possible by sharing ideas that assisted me in rising through difficulty.
Recently, I felt unsure about this partially completed installment which included Emerson’s sage words, “the ancestor of every action is a Thought.” It sat in draft form… one day… and then another… while doubts regarding this ‘Thoughts’ writing troubled me, so, I surrendered, prayed/meditated, and slept on it.
And, the next morning…
Suddenly, I was back in 2017. In Dark with no Light visible, my body, mind, family and home seemingly slipping through my fingers… and, unexpectedly, pink post-its came to mind.
On (too-chipper looking) post-its, I wrote myself a singular message in 2017 and stuck it around the room – while feeling, deeply, that all was lost for me. I did not believe these audacious proclamations, “I can’t wait to say Infusio healed me!” (Infusio is where I received stem cell treatment alas it does not always work).
The several post-its’ declaration of victory – in each direction I looked – felt like utterly, false optimism.
I guess I Thought ‘maybe I’ll write this and something will shift’? Honestly, I didn’t believe these words initially; they felt like a lie and part of me felt like tearing them to shreds.
However, I kept reading them daily (perhaps because they were all over and I couldn’t avoid them).
Slowly, a teeny, tiny Glimmer appeared occasionally in the depths of my being. I wasn’t even aware of it when it began… I just kept seeing those words, reading them over and over, day after day.
Almost imperceptibly and incrementally, my Thoughts shifted to a possibility that, maybe, maybe (an ever-so-small maybe) healing could be mine – despite outer appearances that illness and loss were my life sentences. As hope rose (and stem cells did their part), I increased my reading and praying/meditating and new perspectives opened to me.
Little by little, my Thoughts changed (thank God) and my belief in wellness grew and grew. And, finally, after ever-so-much, a healthy, changed me appeared…
I truly believe that these small signs, which I stuck around me when all seemed pretty much lost, were a part of my rising from the ashes of my life because they (along with daily repeating orally and in writing similar ideas and voracious study about healing, change, and success plus praying/meditation) were part of shifting what I Thought.
What occurred in my life from gradual Thinking shifts is well described in the book ‘As a Man Thinketh’ by James Allen; “every Thought seed sown or allowed to fall into the mind, and to take root there, produces its own, blossoming sooner or later into act, and bearing its own fruitage of opportunity and circumstance.”
In rising from chronic illness mega-challenge to a grateful, well me, Thinking shifts that better serve me caused helpful changes in perspective (which, eventually, altered my behavior). Thinking differently created part of my healing and a renewed (and renewing) mind; this improved my relationships – with myself and others and increased – and continues to increase – my peace.
I can no longer deny the Truth, for me, of the power of Thoughts in dramatically changing my life for the better. And, every single day, I feel incredibly thankful (and humbled) to have risen from such a deep fall.
As the former President of India, A.P.J. Abdul Kalam said, “Thinking should become your capital asset, no matter whatever ups and downs you come across in life.”
In my heart of hearts, I believe that if coming back from the depths is possible for me, such gifts as healing, improvements, success and more are possible for anyone.
With deep belief in your (and our world’s) ability to Think and rise,
Judy
PS – In case you wonder about the veracity of these pink post-its, here is a photo of one that’s on my computer screen (which I look at daily). (I changed the wording a bit after things started to shift to acknowledge Divine help in my healing.)
Original Email Date May 31, 2020
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